Thursday, June 19, 2014

Frustrations At Work

I will be the first to admit that my job is a huge part of my life.  I have worked (on and off) for the same company since I was 13.  My mom is one of the owners and now I am too.  I happily work at night and one weekends.  I love my job!

Last year my mother retired and I lost some of my enjoyment in my job.  I went from being able to sell and handle our company's marketing and social media to be the gatekeeper for every person who works in our company.  I feel like I am trying to heard cats most days.  The minutia has really dragged me down and I don't know how to shed this crap!

Instead of posting to Twitter and Facebook or managing a big event, I now have to harp about people being late, taking too long of a lunch break and not doing the basic functions of their job.  Some days, I just want to stand in the doorway of my office and scream that "I don't fucking give a shit what you idiots do!"

One of the biggest frustrations is with the older employees.  I know you are 20 years older than me, but you still work for me.  When I ask you to do something, I expect you to do it.  I'm sorry that you never saved for a retirement and you will work at this job until the day you die.  But that isn't my fucking problem.  I have a 401k.  I planned ahead!

I am new to being in charge of people but I feel like I am barely staying afloat some days.  I know I have a lot going on in my personal life, but I try really hard to leave all that crap at home.  But after someone comes into your office and screams at you because the battery in her wireless mouse died and I didn't race over to give her a new one (yes that did happen!), it is hard to not let that bother you.  How do you keep up the happy face when you are constantly being shit on?

I really need to become a stronger swimmer, because I am drowning over here!

Monday, June 9, 2014

Crickets, Crickets Everywhere!

I have been a terrible blogger lately.  Mostly because my life is just insane right now.  Work consumes every minute of the day and then I come home and chase Max all night.  He has decided that sleep is the devil and we wake up SUPER early every day!

I feel like I am slowly putting myself back together after my divorce.  I have really focused on work, started a new diet, made some new friends, etc.

But the biggest news of all.....I bought a house!

My offer was accepted the other day and I have my inspection this week.  Fingers crossed that everything goes well at the inspection and the deal will go thru.

I am equal parts excited and really, really nervous right now.  I can't wait to move into a place that will be all my own and I am thrilled to own a house again.  But I have never carried a mortgage on my own before and I am really nervous about fitting it into my budget.

Either way this is another step towards a new life.  And that makes me so happy!