Monday, December 28, 2015

I Done Swolled

Well the holidays are almost behind us and I am officially fat again.  And I have no one to blame but myself.  I ate and drank my way thru the month of December and now it is time to repent.  

Back in the summer, when I did the Isagenix 30 Day cleanse, I felt amazing.  My skin looked great, my clothing was loose.  It was the best I have felt since I had Max.   

But then work, Max's school and other personal things got in the way.  This derailed my health goals.  I still worked out like a mad woman but my eating habits got lax and I kind of stopped caring.  I have finally realized that I can work out 24/7 and it won't matter because I have to stop putting crap in my mouth!

This ends today.  I want to feel like I did this summer.  I want to look in the mirror and like what I see.   I control my happiness and this is a key piece of the puzzle.  So it is time to take charge!

I know most people wait till after New Years to start but I literally can't stand how I feel.  My clothing is tight and that makes me uncomfortable and cranky!  I can't go another day as a fat ass so I am getting down to business starting today.


I love this quote because it is so true, especially for me!  I lose my focus on the weekends, when I am elbow deep in pizza and white wine.  I just have to keep my eye on the prize this year! I want to feel beautiful again and 2016 is the year to do it. 

Whose with me?

Thursday, December 17, 2015

Call Me Scrooge

It sounds terrible but I am kind of over the holidays and we still have another week to go.  That makes me sound like such a Grinch but I am definitely in a holiday funk.  I don't know if it is the weather this year, which is crazy warm, or too many cookies but I just feel kind of blah.  I don't have the Christmas spirit right now.  I never say this but I am actually looking forward to the New Year.



The source of my Grinchiness is way too much junk food and alcohol.  My body hates me right now and I have no one to blame but myself.  I have had an excess of holiday parties and holiday luncheons this year and I am paying the price.  This week alone I had two lunches and four parties.  Can you say way too much white wine and finger foods!


All of this rich food makes me feel kind of gross and unfortunately there is no end in sight right now. I feel fat and so tired.   Even my skin looks sad.  I need a healthy dose of water and spinach.

So how do you turn this around when there are endless Christmas Cookies at your disposal?

I think the best way to beat the holiday blues is to recharge and take care of yourself.  It is only Thursday but I am already planning my weekend.  I am going to eat really healthy, drink a ton of water and work out daily.  On top of that I am going to slap a face mask on and paint my nails.  By Sunday I will feel like a new woman!

When I feel good, I look good.  Right now I feel like garbage and my dream is to never get out of my pjs each morning!  So a change is definitely needed!

With 7 days to go till Christmas Eve, I think some cleansing is in order.   Clean your house, clean your body and clean up your diet.  Then you can really enjoy all the treats on the 24th and 25th.


So who is with me?  Less focus on baking cookies and wrapping gifts.  More focus on recharging your batteries and taking care of yourself!  Don't be fat Barbie!

Wednesday, December 9, 2015

Training Like a Boss

I know you have heard it before.  New year, new you.  Get healthy in the new year.  Get the body you always wanted.   Blah blah blah  Been there, done that.  Bought the t-shirt.

But what if you really do want to get healthier, get fit, lose weight, etc.  That is me.  I really do want it.  I just can't seem to stop the candy corn and wine from going into my mouth.

And there in lies my problems.  I have NO self control.

Even at the peak of my marathon training, I thought I was overweight.   I was running 50+ miles a week but eating everything that crossed my path.  It was so frustrating to not see the results that I was SURE I would see.  Where were my rock hard abs and my skinny runners legs?

Flash forward, here we are a couple of years later, a couple of pounds heavier with a kid in tow.  So what do I do now that I can barely squeeze in a 30 minute workout, let alone a 3 hour long run?  Yeah, I don't have the answer.  I was hoping you did!

Kidding..... sort of

I recently tried Daily Burn.  I can't seem to get myself to the gym anymore and I actually really liked the idea of being able to work out at home but I was struggling to constantly come up with workouts.  So at $15 a month, I was intrigued.  But I have to say I am not in love with it.  The videos never change so three months later I am constantly repeating my workouts.  

I also mentioned before that I have been seriously considering the Kayla Itsines Beach Body Guides.  I like the idea of under 30 minute workouts, at home.  I know I can do that.  Will I be bored without videos to follow?  Probably.  But it won't be impossible.  

The other day I was surfing Instagram (stalking running accounts) and I found another runner who did the Beach Body workouts in addition to running.  I have done P90x in the past but an hour+ for working out is a pre-kid luxury.  So they now have Focus T25, which is similar to Kayla in the shortness of the workouts.  But these are videos, so easier to follow.  But almost double the price.

My workouts are a huge part of my fitness and I am always up for trying something new.  But I can't seem to bite the bullet on any of these.  So I guess I am looking for a suggestion.  So what to do?  Any one want to chime in?  Preferences? Experience?

Help a fellow runner out!

Tuesday, December 1, 2015

Hey Hey December

I can't believe today is December 1st!!!!  This year has literally flow by for Max and I.

2015 was a really hard year at some points.  There were highs but the lows were sooooo low!  I honestly thought that nothing was worse than the year when my ex and I divorced but after looking back, this year was much harder.  Every bump in the road for Max was like a rejection and while I know he won't remember them, I also know I will never forget them.

With all of that, it is really important to balance out my year with all the good that came out of it.  So here is what I have:


  1. My dude- Max is my number one.  I want to sell him some days but he is the best.  So funny at times (his Christmas request of a remote controlled Chipmunk) and so sweet (like this morning when he told me I am the best Mommy every).
  2. My family- I wouldn't be here now if it wasn't for them.  When everything fell apart, they moved me back to Connecticut, helped me rebuild, helped me buy a new house, etc.  They are the best family and I am really sorry that yours isn't as cool as mine.
  3. My health- I am healthy as fuck! I see people who are chronically sick and I know it is because they don't take care of themselves.  I cheat all the time and I have a serious love affair with candy but I work hard and my health is the benefit of that.
  4. My strong body- It is not the body of my 20s and yes I would love to lose some weight and grow 5 inches and have my hair triple in volume.  But when I am out running, I feel so strong and invincible.  This body grew the world's biggest baby (not that 15lb Chinese baby, but close), has run marathons, gutted and rebuilt a house, etc.  Not too shabby, right?
Given all of this, I am a pretty lucky lady and it is really important to remember this!  

What are you thankful for?