Wednesday, January 27, 2016

World's Okayest Alex

Some days you just have to throw in the towel. You gracefully accept that the world is clearly working against you and you bow out.  That is exactly what I did yesterday. 

I said screw it. I threw all my to do lists and my resolutions out the window. I didn't use my goal app. Didn't check anything off any list. No star stickers on my charts.  No achievements at all.  I say all of this with a huge smile on my face!

I tried my best.  I really did.  I worked hard, drove to Long Island for a meeting, took Max to the library, endured 20 toddler meltdowns and one throw water glass. I negotiated thru a dinner of eggs, Pirates Booty and random peanut butter toast. I calmly detached him from the dogs tail because we don't use Finley like a tow line. But when I walked into the bathroom at bath time and found him dunking his clean towel in the soapy bath water and scrubbing the 800 matchbox cars filling me tub, I was just fucking done. 

I calmly put him in his bed, handed him his iPad and got in my bed to read. 

I don't give a shit that I didn't floss and I didn't do my kegels. Fuck you to do list. The plaque in between my teeth makes me happy.  

I really don't care that my meals today didn't really achieve a healthy standard. I think a dinner of raisins and string cheese is really balanced.  And it was delicious.

I don't give a rats ass that I only drank 4 glasses of water today. I had about 7 cups of coffee and coffee is made with water. In my world, that math makes 11 cups of water today. So boom, goal achieved. Look who is healthy as fuck!

I struggled thru 25 minutes of Pilates when all I wanted to do was lay on my yoga mat and eat goldfish crackers. Check check check

Some days life is too much. Maybe I didn't sweep the kitchen and the garbage cans are full. I sure as hell didn't put away the laundry. And nothing short of a miracle is going to get me out of bed now to clean the dogs ears or whatever other bullshit is filling up the twenty random to do lists on the kitchen table right now. 


Some days you are just done.  And trying to achieve all of those things last night would have made me a raving lunatic.  So you reach your point and accept that is all you can do that day.  

Some nights you scrap everything, get in bed with a glass of wine and a smutty book.  I went to bed happy.  That is all the matters.  

Tuesday, January 19, 2016

Barre 3 Challenge

My January fitness plan was to do the Barre 3 Challenge.  The challenge consists of, each week, taking four 60-minute classes, doing one 10-minute online class and making one meal from their recipe library.

Well today is the 19th and I am pretty much a failure at this.....

The first week was great.  I did my four 60 minute classes (online because there isn't a studio by me), I did my online 10 minute class but I never made the meal.  The recipe the first week was for a Detox smoothie.  I have chosen to stick with Isagenix shakes for Breakfast and Lunch so this didn't fit into my meal plan.  No biggie though.

The second week, I came down with the flu.  I worked out Monday but that was it for the rest of the week.  I lived on chicken broth and crackers so I never made the recipe either.

I am on day two of week 3 but I still feel really sick.  I am going to force myself to do a 30 minute workout tonight but I know there is no way I could finish a 60 minute one.  I was out of breath walking up the stairs yesterday so a 60 minute workout may kill me!

Obviously January isn't over yet and I am determined to stick to the rest of the challenge.  But I also believe in being really honest with yourself, especially when it comes to goals.

60 minute workouts just don't fit my life style.  I have limited free time so I either have to get up at 4:45 to fit the class in or wait till 8pm.  Either way, that is really hard for me to achieve.  I can manage them on the weekends but not during the week days.  I am more of a 30-40 minute girl and I am totally ok with that.

I will tell you that I love doing Barre 3 and I love the online workouts.  It is only $15/month for unlimited online access.  I totally think that is a deal!  (Obviously not an ad)

The workouts don't change a lot but I am ok with that.  There is a lot of variety in the length of the workouts.  I find Sadie Lincoln to be the best instructor.  She is really funny and upbeat.  The other instructors make me want to punch them in the face.  

If you haven't tried Barre 3 definitely give it a try!

Monday, January 11, 2016

Staying on Track

New Year, New You.... or not?

We are on the second week of the New Year and how many of you have already given up on your resolutions?  Not me!  I am determined to stick with it this year.

I went for a long run this weekend and of course, we were all talking about how much weight we gained over the holidays.  When the other three woman mentioned their weights, they were all a lot less than mine.  I try really hard to not focus on the number, because we are all different.  But I used to be in those weight ranges.  And then one day I just stopped carrying.

Don't get me wrong.  I am not the size of Gilbert's mother yet.  No one is about to crane me out of my house or anything.

But I definitely have trouble keeping my eye on the prize.  And over the weekend, when there are delicious treats to eat or wine to drink or pizza to shove into my mouth, it is really hard to lose track of all of those goals.

For some reason, I can stay on track Monday thru Friday.  Being at work and out of my house keeps me away from junk food and focused.  But every Friday night the shit hits the fan and before I know it, it is Sunday and I have eaten my body weight in goldfish crackers and string cheese.

How do you stay on track over the weekend?  How do you remember that this pizza probably won't be the last pizza you ever eat?  Do you have a similar problem?

It is really hard and I still haven't found the answer to this.  But I know I am going to keep working on it.  Because I really want to feel good about the way that I look.  Don't you?

Thursday, January 7, 2016

The Year of Not Giving a F#*k

That is my plan for 2016.  I am no longer going to give a fuck.  I plan to shed the bullshit this year and learn to prioritize.  Take notes because you should be doing it too.

First, I am going to learn to love myself.  Not all that hugging a tree crap (sorry yogis).  I mean love myself by making Alex a priority.  Eating good food.  Taking care of my appearance.  Making time for me.  Working out regularly.

My first step in this was to a hire a babysitter for every Saturday am.  For two hours, it is all about me.  I plan to do my long runs at this time.  But if it is too cold and raining, I will just get coffee and a manicure.  It is important that I have a moment of my week where I can do the things that make me feel like a human being and not just Max's mom.

Second, I am going to surround myself with love and support.  I have great friends and an amazing family.  But on New Years eve, the only texts I got were from my parents and my sister.  That sounds so pathetic but part of that is on me.

I am so exhausted sometimes that I ignore people and I cancel plans.  I am not making excuses, I am just stating reality.  If I want people to care about me, I have to show them that care in return.

The other side of that coin is to get rid of all the bad people.  The ones that make you feel bad.  This sounds ridiculous and petty, but are they worth the $10/hour for a babysitter?  If not, cut them lose.  I may have less friends but they will at least be quality friends.

Third, I am going to accept the things I can't change.  Many things are outside of my control.  Max's dad spending time with him.  My nanny showing up to work each day.  The behavior of my co-workers.  All outside of my control and I am going to learn to let those things go.  I obsess about these things till I almost feel sick and I refuse to do that any longer.

All of these things weighed me down in 2015.  They wasted my time, made me sad, and kept me up at night.  I intend to shed these worries in 2016.  2016 is the year to fly!

Monday, January 4, 2016

2016 Workout Challenges

I love working out.  That isn't a question.  I generally work out 5 to 6 days a week because it keeps me sane.  I can have a horrible day, come home and do 30 minutes of cardio and I instantly feel better.

But I do have a tendency to continue to do the exact same workouts, every single week, month after month.  That is all well and good but I don't think you see results this way so I am going to try something new this year.

I have devised a monthly workout schedule.  I am going to try a new workout each month and see how they go.  This isn't set in stone so if something sucks, I can always change it but I am interested to see if I get better results this way.

I only got a couple of months done right now but this is where I am at:

January- I am doing the Barre 3 Challenge.  That is four 60 min Barre 3 workouts each week.
February- I am going to do yoga 4 days a week.  I will be interested to see how my runner's body feels after all that stretching and breathing. I have been using Yoga with Adriene's YouTube videos and they are fantastic.
March- I am going to do the Kayla Itsines' 12 week Beach Body Guides
April- Kayla's Beach Body Guides
May- Kayla's Beach Body Guides
June- I am going to do Pilates 4 days a week.  I have been using the Daily Burn's videos but any other suggestions would be fantastic.

For now, I am trying to keep all of this to 4 days a week because I still want to keep up with my running.  My number one 2016 New Year's Resolution is to run another 1/2 marathon and I don't want to lose what has taken months to get back.  I am thinking a Fall half so August and September will probably be dedicated to running.

For the rest of the month's I am totally open to suggestions.  What are your fitness goals for 2016?