Monday, October 3, 2016

Clearing Some Space

I know what you are thinking.  Christ this girl is purging her house again!  But no, I have stopped obsessively donating things.  (For the most part!)  The space I am talking about is head space.

I know, I know.  Hug a tree for god sake, right?  This new age, hippie talk is so not like my sarcastic self.  Did she start wearing birkenstocks?  Did she trade in the Volvo for a Subaru?  Nope, I am just trying new ways to feel better!

With my 2016 Fitness Challenge, I have devoted a lot of this year to bettering myself.  I read a few self help books, I read A LOT of parenting books, I really devoted myself to Yoga again, I (for the most part) cleaned up my diet and much more!  But I still feel mentally exhausted a lot of the time.

Let's be honest, life is exhausting.  I have tried to really simplify our life but I still have to work and I still have to be a parent.  These two things weigh on my mind a lot.  They keep me up at night.  They are the basis of most of my worries.  

So I decided to try meditation.

My brain runs about 4,879 miles per minute.  It races day and night.  I am notorious for making to do lists while lying in Savasana.  When I workout, I keep a notepad nearby so I can write down thoughts.  It sounds neurotic but these thoughts slam around in my head until I write them down, so I finally gave in and started doing that.

I have been trying this for about a month now and it is by no means easy for me.  First, I have a really hard time sitting still.  I fix my hair, I fix my bra, I wiggle.  It is shocking how hard this is for me.  Two, my brain is so chatty.  I have to constantly bring my mind back to the meditation.  All of these things have made meditation more of a chore. 

Because of this, I have gravitated towards guided meditations.  Focusing on someone else talking has made this endeavor a lot easier.  I have been using the Meditation Studio app and it has been fantastic.  I am strictly a 3-5 minute meditator but I can't tell you how peaceful I feel when I am done.

I am still very new to this and I have to constantly remind myself to make time to meditate.  But I am really feeling the results of it so I am going to stick with it!