I know what you are thinking. Christ this girl is purging her house again! But no, I have stopped obsessively donating things. (For the most part!) The space I am talking about is head space.
I know, I know. Hug a tree for god sake, right? This new age, hippie talk is so not like my sarcastic self. Did she start wearing birkenstocks? Did she trade in the Volvo for a Subaru? Nope, I am just trying new ways to feel better!
With my 2016 Fitness Challenge, I have devoted a lot of this year to bettering myself. I read a few self help books, I read A LOT of parenting books, I really devoted myself to Yoga again, I (for the most part) cleaned up my diet and much more! But I still feel mentally exhausted a lot of the time.
Let's be honest, life is exhausting. I have tried to really simplify our life but I still have to work and I still have to be a parent. These two things weigh on my mind a lot. They keep me up at night. They are the basis of most of my worries.
So I decided to try meditation.
My brain runs about 4,879 miles per minute. It races day and night. I am notorious for making to do lists while lying in Savasana. When I workout, I keep a notepad nearby so I can write down thoughts. It sounds neurotic but these thoughts slam around in my head until I write them down, so I finally gave in and started doing that.
I have been trying this for about a month now and it is by no means easy for me. First, I have a really hard time sitting still. I fix my hair, I fix my bra, I wiggle. It is shocking how hard this is for me. Two, my brain is so chatty. I have to constantly bring my mind back to the meditation. All of these things have made meditation more of a chore.
Because of this, I have gravitated towards guided meditations. Focusing on someone else talking has made this endeavor a lot easier. I have been using the Meditation Studio app and it has been fantastic. I am strictly a 3-5 minute meditator but I can't tell you how peaceful I feel when I am done.
I am still very new to this and I have to constantly remind myself to make time to meditate. But I am really feeling the results of it so I am going to stick with it!